Contemplations as a Batik Artist July 20 2014, 3 Comments

Well, I gotta tell ya, the batik biz is going through another metamorphosis... Not just the biz, but also the beliefs and choices that got me here.  June was an outrageous month for sales - so intense I hired help, which was great and I like our new little team...  But I wasn't able to paint the imaginative batiks that I love to paint, or make anything new at all really.  All profit went right back into inventory and supplies, shipping, fees and etc.  I worked so hard I wondered - and I mean, I truly wondered if it was even worth it.  Recently I managed to make a few creative batiks just for my own sanity, but I also went introverted too..  all kinds of weird fears and needs to apologize for my clothing choices, or lack of choices, or colors, or sizes, or prices, or my right to not be mistreated by a select few oppressive personalities who shall remain anonymous (where they belong).  

Rather than expressing myself, I may have been using my strengths to repress and conform, like I'm competing against some big box store or something...?  I will repeat the most popular designs - and it's a miracle I can repeat them as closely as I do!  But I don't know if "make to order" is the right way to do this.  I find myself back at square one.  I can't tell you how many times I contemplated quitting.  Trying to convince people to buy is not the truth of what this art is about.  The batik is truly eclectic and unusual.  It's nonconformist while being beautiful and versatile.  It's Rock Star Art, and those who collect know what it's like to wear it.  And by no means am I vain about it.  Quite opposite - maybe even to my own detriment.  I wonder what I'm doing with my life.  I'm so obsessed with batik, but there are only so many pieces I can make - and I will make them for as long as I can...  but I don't know if this is the right way to do it.  I may have been sending out the wrong message all this time.

NOTE: All pending customized orders will be finished up THIS WEEK! I may put the Etsy shop on vacation while I get things finished up.  I may not put it on vacation.  I don't know.  I'll think about it while I paint today.  I'm behind schedule on a few orders and it's starting to seriously stress me out.  I strongly believe in integrity and creativity for us all to wear and enjoy, but there's gotta be a better way.  I don't know if there is, but I'm willing to try and find it.


Love to all!